Today is the first day of no more nursing. That's it. I'm done. No more having babies. No more mastitis. No more being at the mercy of my little one's hunger. No more gentle gazing into her eyes as we have our moments before she sleeps.

This is harder than I thought. I'm torn between happiness and sorrow right now. The next couple of nights are going to be rough as Shawni gets used to the new routine. I know I'll be tempted to give her what she wants, but at the same time I know that she's ready for this. I'm not sure that I am though.

The next step is to move her into her own room. I think I'm going to wait a bit until I get a handle on what's going on now before I rush into that... Give the two of us time to adjust.